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星期三, 九月 07, 2005

Hard life....
Miss the holidays...
Don't like the way studio works now...feels like i'm being squeezed til the max. So irritated with doing things, getting things done, pondering over so many things to do and not feel like doing anything. Can't seem to get any decent rest cox i knoe i have to get things done somehow.
I feel worse when i compare with people from other facs, i awed how my classmates managed to joke and laugh and take things so easy. I seriously consider dropping the course cox i wan a more fulfilling uni life. 50 years from now there's a high chance i'll regret slogging like mad now and not having what a 20yr old shld be enjoying. I get no satisfaction from the things i'm doing. There's no meaning to anything.
My darling's hospitalised again, I get extremely mad with the doctors in sgh everytime i tink of this...y did they allow him to b discharge the previous time b4 they could find out wat exactly is wrong with him? Numerous blood tests and body scans didn't generate any results...i seriously doubt their capabilities and sincerity towards their profession. I doubt they can get any results out this time....worse thing is i am totally helpless, can only keep wishing they can discover what's wrong asap...but i feel damm cheated. Got no choice but to depend on them....i hate this feeling of dependency.

nothing else matters on9/07/2005 12:39:00 上午

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