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星期三, 九月 01, 2004

i tink i haf sinned....

My social life is getting abit more complicated....perhaps too overwhelming. Lately i met a guy from the same gem as me. We're born on the same day. But apart from the fact tt we're born on the same day, we clicked almost instantly...After knowing him for 2 wks, i find him funny, cheerful, looks beng-ish, caring, and a v faithful person in love. We haf been tokkin on msn for a few days already and i find myself actually looking forward to seeing him online, i even find myself getting nervous goin to class today cox i'm goin to c him. It's madness. He sent me home today, he drove me home today. I felt --i dunno....it's a v sheer feeling i dunno y i said ok. Perhaps i'm tinking too much but i haben felt this way since i got attached. It's like falling in love all over again...and the more i thought of it, the worse i felt.

I cried when i tokked to siwei over the phone today. Cox when i heard siwei's voice i remembered telling myself tt no matter wat happened, siwei has always been there for me and only he truly loves and cares abt me, we have been thru so much together.....and thinkin of me having stupid feelings for another juz makes me feel like crying....I feel like I knoe perhaps this's just a temporary infatuation and it'll go away in no time. I just dunno wat to do......sometimes i hate myself...

nothing else matters on9/01/2004 11:59:00 下午

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