星期二, 十月 18, 2005
Feels blissed to have the person i love most in the world sleeping behind me when i'm doing my stuff...
Abit confused with what christian told me today. Hmmm abit irritated with myself for being so forgetful with his words, his english is already not very good in the first place. But the gist is - the tutors are not pleased with me because they felt that i have not been following the guidelines (for the stool assignment). There could have been other negative opinions about me being rebellious in the sense that i disregard their advices and went away doing my own stuff. I have yet to resolve a possible misunderstanding regarding me seeking advice from christian and following his design approach rather than the year 2 tutors, whose approaches are clearly different from christian's, leading to me having a design outcome which is deviating from what is expected from us as a class.
I was quite shocked when he told me that christiane was the one who brought this up to him, because i was never under her for my stool project, and i had certianly never ever mention christian's name in any part of my project! Where the hell would she get this idea??
Not sure how should i deal with this, should i just let the matter past? Or should i clear the possible misunderstanding with the tutors that i'm not acting against them...sigh. It is already a struggle - having to have a fresh approach, starting over...and now i felt the tutors are not pleased with my attitude? Why do i have to face these kinda problems? Sometimes i felt so silly - my sem and prob next sem goin to suffer cox i did badly for 1, now 2, projects....i have to stop indulging myself in thinking that they are goin to appreciate my work because already, i have spoilt their first impression of me. And impression really is important in the grading of design (i personally feel).
Perhaps subconsciously i really am rebelling? Just that i have not realise...cox throughout the entire stool project i have been feeling down and sulking... Haiz...but whatever happens is over. STOP WHINING NOW SIXIU!!! IT'S ENOUGH!!!!!! MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE!!!
nothing else matters on10/18/2005 12:25:00 上午
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