星期日, 三月 20, 2005
wat was i tinking? Why do i keep throwing my temper around? Y do i keep getting angry with him? Y cant i be satisfied with wat i've got? Y can't i juz accept him as he is? Y do i feel so insecure easily? Y can't I just live without having any expectations of him? Wat do i want to make myself happy? Y can't i make him understand? Or izzit that i'm being too incomphrehensive? Or i'm juz plain demanding? Unreasonable? Stressing? Y does he run and hide alone when i start arguing? Y the only thing he knoes is to say sorry and blame himself? Y can't he address the problem? Y can't he understand or bother to find out about my problem? Is he being insenstivie? Or is he too tired? Y is he tired? Y did he say he's tired? Is he juz tryin to please me? Am i really giving him so much stress that is making him so tired? Y can't i leave him alone? Y can't i keep my promise of tryin to be understanding? Izzit my fault or his or both? But wat can i do when i totally can't communicate with him even when we're tokkin? Y doesn't he get my meanings? Y izzit i always hope that he'll just tell me he loves me and it never happens? Y can't i just survive without the verbal part? Y do i keep failing in tryin to be nice? Y can't he just for once do something right or say something right? Wat's the point of going on? How issit possible that we can argue when we're a thousand miles away? How can we still argue when i miss him so much? Y did i flare up in the first place? Wat am i going to do now that he says he wanna be alone? Does he realise that it's difficult for me too? Wat can i do or say now that i made him so helpless and trapped? Wat can i do to help us? Wat shld i say? SHld i sms him again? Wat if he's already having his training and he can't receive? Will i b more sad as a result? Y can't i be a stronger person? Y do i keep doubting us? Y can't we communicate? Y can't we communicate? Y can't we communicate properly? Y can't we communicate after being together for so long?
Why?
nothing else matters on3/20/2005 11:08:00 下午
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