星期日, 十一月 28, 2004
Exams are finally over! not finally actually....it was over so soon so much better then the As. Went shopping and 'touring' with some of the iD pple yesterday and felt actually - quite sad, now that i'm thinking about the whole trip. I miss Lizhen! And wingchi, even weiquan...(haha sorrie wq) I feel quite left out -not physically....but in terms of our 'taste' and what appeals to us. I dun like tee shirts, yet they can spend hours looking at the same tees, i can't stay in one area for long; they can happily stay at the scarfs area and start joking around for like half hr(?!), i thought stores like POA, ozoc and gg5 haf interesting stuff, they prefer seiyu, the edge and addidas. Finally i haf to conclude that it's me who's the odd one, while half the time i thought they were. Sigh....it's not a nice feeling. Actually i didn't expect a 'tour' around singapore, i thought it's kinda a few gers personal outing just for shopping, but it turned out to be a class outing cum tour-guiding to joyce and her fren. I know i sounded kinda selfish and anti-social. Sigh don't know why i'm like this. Perhaps i'm scared of mingling with the most of the pple in the class cox i dun reflect me. I cannot help it...sigh.
nothing else matters on11/28/2004 11:35:00 下午
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星期六, 十一月 20, 2004
i hate my room....i hate my house...i hate negotiating with my parents. I hate it. I am deeply deprived of comfort! And i am forbidded to create comfort for myself. It is deemed to be potientially awful for my mum. I am trapped! I cannot even talk on the phone with siwei cox i DUN HAVE A PROPER PHONE AT HOME???? THE BLOODING PHONE RUNS LOW ON BATT EVERY 5 MINUTES and refused to be charged. I am SO unfortunate. I pity myself. PLEASE GET ME OUT OF THIS. I even haf to buy my own HOUSE TELEPHONE????!!!!!
nothing else matters on11/20/2004 11:46:00 下午
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星期二, 十一月 02, 2004
tend to be so stressed up and concerned with every single thing i do. Stressed over CAT tutorials...stupid nber seem to be able to do well despite thinkin i knoe enough. Tml's unseen and this final tutorial seriously hope i can finally pass for once. Today we had our 6 steps evaluation. Really like screw up - didn't work well, thought we could do better aesthetically wise but too bad i didn't really get to read the assignment question so wasn't aware that aesthetics count until like juz now which apparently it was abit too late to change our design. I think seriously it's just not meant to be....the ideal idea of doing well in this course. It's not just about DESIGN -or whatever you think design is. It's so broad i didn't expect anything like this - taking CAT learning solidworks.....going for mech engin lessons......doing this weird 6 steps thing though it's kinda fun...it's just not my cup of tea. Kinda wonder sometimes will i get a chance to apply watever i've learnt so painstakingly and wat i'm going to learn in the years to come. It's so unpredictable and going to be so ironic - doesn't mean you're good in art - in design ( assume that they're related) means you'll do well in this course. Just like me. Don't have the means to be. Don't have the attitude to be. Just not meant to be. I should really juz try to chill and relax. It's killing me.
nothing else matters on11/02/2004 01:23:00 上午
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