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星期日, 五月 23, 2004

Not so happy these few weeks Lie in bed tinking wat's wrong...So wat's wrong with me? I cant seem to get satisfied with anything...Abt my work, abt my pay, abt my relationships, abt time spent with him, abt everything...

He juz sms me say this coming sat is burnt cox of live firing...

( by the way we were supposed to plan a great date toge watchin troy initially--we have postphoned the movie for 2 weeks....guess need to postphone again )

I guess i'm getting impatient and tired waiting for him. He seems to be always having a tough time in camp. Last week was outfield, he came back half dead with both arms and legs full of weird lookin bites and a back full of sand rash (by the way wat's tt???) Den he told me he's block leave may be cancelled :(((((( That means he'll never get any break until sept when he goes brunei??!!!! Sigh.....wonder wat's next.....but i tell myself i need to be understanding!! But it's really hard to be understanding cox i feel abit lack of attention myself. Hmmm even though he's tryin hard to meet me. But today i can sense he's stressed up himself and he finally confessed that he himself is feelin stressed up cox he's always rushing for time either with me or goin home to spend time with his family or rushin back to camp. He says he has not spend time for himself for awhile. I felt sad for him all the sudden. Perhaps i'm too caught up with me myself and i until i totally neglected his feelings! :( So low morale... i need to cheer myself up first before cheering him on.

nothing else matters on5/23/2004 08:16:00 下午

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