星期日, 五月 30, 2004
We bought 2 hamsters!!! Hee....they're brown and white in color. V cute! Keep jumping around. Bought both females cox dun wan them to give birth ( they'll eat up their babies :( ) Siwei gave them stupid names -heaven and earth.....cox we were eating dessert and i was asking wat names we shld give them, there was this heaven and earth green tea poster right in front of us. Hmmm..... anyway, i told him the name sux. Hope our hamsters will live happily together. They're munchin carrots..... :)
nothing else matters on5/30/2004 11:38:00 下午
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星期五, 五月 28, 2004
Guess i'll not be able to leave my work for quite some time... mi boss juz asked me to "stay for as long as i can" Actually it's not a bad idea to stay on cox reminding myself the initial reason tt i took up this lobang is cox i wanna build up my folio. So izznt this always wat i wanted??? And actually me quite happy that he's asking me to stay cox tt could mean i'm contributing to the company :) It's somehow abit of achievement? Hmmm perhaps i'm blinded by the boredom. Should stay on...got new project coming in, and mi other colleague is coming back next week from maternity leave! Me boss said it's some kids stuff....sounds more fun den the popular catelogue. *grinz* Hope things stay this fun always :) Shall get back to designing my sun in e meantime. Oh 1 more thing to be happy abt--today's friday! :)))))) Even though this weekend may not be able to see him, still happy! Hope tml's 'reunion' back in sch is goin to be nice. (Shld i gO??) sigh
nothing else matters on5/28/2004 02:32:00 下午
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星期三, 五月 26, 2004
today v happy :) Cox long long time nber get to msg each other juz for chatting le. And he msged me juz now for abt 2 hrs? Haha...Cox they were allowed 2 hrs free time to get out of camp. I wanted to get a pet! Hmmm to keep me company? I told him if i shld get a pet, he says no cox "i wan to be e onli one in ur life" haha...v stupid but SO SWEET. But my mum dun allow me to get one, so he says he buy for me instead so my mum wont scold. I said i wan a hamster who doesnt bite. He says OKiE.... :) It's goin to be our 1.5 yrs anni pressie....Hmmm but better dun get too excited first in case we cannot buy it :( But me still v happy :) heee
nothing else matters on5/26/2004 11:18:00 下午
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星期二, 五月 25, 2004
Waiting for time to pass me by
Did something different at work these 2 days...did some drawings for a new chain of coffeeshops called sunshine. :) So ironic me feeling so blue yet need to create something "vibrant" "cheerful" and "energetic" for their mascot....have been drawing lots and lots of different suns of all shapes and faces... ... til me getting abit perked up by the sunny drawings already- i guess.
Not sure when will i be able to leave my job. Cox the popular bookshop seems to be taking their own sweet time to look through the design and making changes. Actually i dun feel so anxious to leave liaoz cox i realise i probably wil be rotting at home after 2 weeks of break? See how....But i still wan to leave SOON.
This sat got a snr meet jnr session back at nj...not sure if i shld attend cox me had nber been close to my council jnrs... got a feeling i may go there and feel abit awkward--afterall it is their camp and not mine. And i remember i'm not really keen on knowing MY grandseniors anyway so....Eh mabbe i'm the only one tinking this way????? Hmm And seniors...heard that some of our snrs will be there too...Definitely dun feel like seeing pple like jac or edward...But me dun have plans for sat too, and eugene kept encouragin me to go. So perhaps i shld go back and see see? Actually i need to go back if philibert is goin back cox 2 of my cds are still with him. Hmph...Haha my reasons for goin back are pathetic. Or izzit juz reasON?
nothing else matters on5/25/2004 06:34:00 下午
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星期日, 五月 23, 2004
Not so happy these few weeks Lie in bed tinking wat's wrong...So wat's wrong with me? I cant seem to get satisfied with anything...Abt my work, abt my pay, abt my relationships, abt time spent with him, abt everything...
He juz sms me say this coming sat is burnt cox of live firing...
( by the way we were supposed to plan a great date toge watchin troy initially--we have postphoned the movie for 2 weeks....guess need to postphone again )
I guess i'm getting impatient and tired waiting for him. He seems to be always having a tough time in camp. Last week was outfield, he came back half dead with both arms and legs full of weird lookin bites and a back full of sand rash (by the way wat's tt???) Den he told me he's block leave may be cancelled :(((((( That means he'll never get any break until sept when he goes brunei??!!!! Sigh.....wonder wat's next.....but i tell myself i need to be understanding!! But it's really hard to be understanding cox i feel abit lack of attention myself. Hmmm even though he's tryin hard to meet me. But today i can sense he's stressed up himself and he finally confessed that he himself is feelin stressed up cox he's always rushing for time either with me or goin home to spend time with his family or rushin back to camp. He says he has not spend time for himself for awhile. I felt sad for him all the sudden. Perhaps i'm too caught up with me myself and i until i totally neglected his feelings! :( So low morale... i need to cheer myself up first before cheering him on.
nothing else matters on5/23/2004 08:16:00 下午
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星期五, 五月 21, 2004
*sigh* Realise that actually i'll be a v v lonely person if i becum single again. Cox frens close to me seem to be happily attached! I was tryin to get pple out to watch a performance with me this sat (which is tml) and i realised that everyone seems to be busy dating on the same day... Perhaps this is a warning sign telling me the consequences shld i becum single again? haha...Nonetheless, i shld be happy for my frens cox i knoe they're having a good time and enjoyin themselves. But this also seems to be the first time i'm looking for pple to go out with and no one seems to be able to make it...I just feel abit sad for myself. *sigh* Perhaps i shld continue to indulge myself in computer games and tv shows, at least these provide me ample entertainment without having to think too much and get worried that i'm getting abit low in my social life. Well, whatever comes, it goes. Just don't think too much and get on with my life.
nothing else matters on5/21/2004 12:26:00 下午
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星期三, 五月 12, 2004
pmsing
nothing else matters on5/12/2004 12:53:00 下午
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星期二, 五月 11, 2004
a bad bad bad week... :( why do we have bad days?
Or am i just having my depression period again? i start to have bad impression of people and every single thing that happens to me again. Everything becums so bu4 shun4 yan3 to me... I loathe everything that i can think badly off. I tink the worse side of them. Even the radio station i find them irritating cox they keep playing the same songs everyday. Now even my computer is going down on me too. Y do everything bad cums together? Or izzit juz me?
I tink it's the latter.
i hate myself.
nothing else matters on5/11/2004 10:35:00 下午
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星期一, 五月 10, 2004
Yoz..... so bored at work i decide to sneak in here to type some crap...
I wanna say I"M JUZ SO BORED! My eyes are red from squinting at the screen doing the monotonous layouts and more layouts.... SIgh i guess i'm stuck doing this popular catalog until i stopped working on the 1st june!
Yup me going to retire at the end of this month....so looking forward to the coming freedom. Have already come up with a list of things i (hope) to do during the 2 month break....here goes....
1. Some self improvement like going to the library to read up more ...hopefully on self expression and stuff.....
2. Apply for membership at the esplanade library....need to borrow scores and catch up with my piano playing...It has been a long long time since i've touched my (beloved) piano. Hope it's still in tune and working :)
3. Learn cooking....Hmmm this includes (a) real meals like porridge and stuff and (b) desserts like cookies and muffins...I learnt how to bake cookies last weekend! Haha....thanks to wingchi or else i'll be eating half cooked cookies without even realising. But last week's premiere batch didnt turn out good visually. I call them
MY Ugly Cookies. Bought a different flavoured mix yesterday with siwei, we're goin to bake them together this coming sat morn before going sentosa (again)!!!!
YAYAYAYAYAYAY4. Play even more computer games....bought 2 games last week....Sims and Hotel....Quite addictive! But unfortunately my laptop is abit spoiled so need to use my bro's....hopefully can get my laptop repaired soon!
5. Go my aunt's house more often.....yup long time nber visit her since she stopped taking care of me! Gotta go there soon and ask her teach me cooking oso....
6. Spend more time with him. siwei's ending his BCT end of this month too! And if he didnt go Leaders, he'll be freer and we can go out more often!!!
7. More shopping! Told lz liaoz she gotta pei me shop since she's ending her work soon. Now hope lj will have time too, rem our shopping spree for uni??? I can't wait....
Now i'm sounding so excited about my holidays... Wish the excitement wont die off too quickly! Okie for now....gotta go back to work....
PS: my poor dar dar is havin a 39.2 degree fever now, he's still sleeping at home...Hope he can get well soon, perhaps goin to visit him after work....
nothing else matters on5/10/2004 04:42:00 下午
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