星期一, 三月 15, 2004
Mornin! tink u still slping...mi tink alot last nite now startin to realise act three yrs without u is a v long long time...startin to feel afraid but i noe i will have e strength to pass thru...now startin to understand y u so reluctant to go...i now feel v lonely and miss u alot suddenly. u'll gone in abt two months and my whole life will change. i noe i wont find another gf dats for sure but i feel v lost now juz by tinking of e days ahead wo u...i'll look for tingy to do onez lik learnin guitar and readin comics...i noe u are worry whether my feelin for u'll fade...i cant say wad'll happen in e future but rite now in e present u are my gf and my love is v v strong...i oso worry abt u dere. Will u fall in love with another guy? I noe u'll say no but i'm afraid if sum one takes care of u realli well dere i noe u'll fall in love... Haf u eva tot wad'll happen when u comeback? Both our livin culture will be v diff. I mabbe still e idiot i'm but wad if i change... act i'm not dat worry abt ur life dere cuz inoe u like e place. i can always send u stuff ev month and i noe u'll be stronger dere andur fren'll help u to settle down... i hope u'll noe how to take care of yr. dere is a foreign country its not as safe as here u haf to take care yr cuz u start to lose yr once u start to haf fun... take v good care of yr dere. Be v wary of strangers... sixiu i haf say so much i noe i'm v selfish by sayin tingy abt us onli. I realli start to feel v lonely le... v stupid rite. E next few months will be our last time toget for a v long time...eight months when u say is fast but act is a v long time. Sixiu sorry for bombin ur fone with so much msg. I dunno how to speak well by tis i can express better...love ya and slp tite my dear
(07:04-07:33am, 14 march 2004)
3 years down the road, will you remember wat you have told me yesterday?
Are we fated to go through this parting?
Is this part of our destiny?
Perhaps we are only meant to play supporting roles in each other lives?
To add a pinch of bliss that is ever so transcient?
So hurting?
So unbearable?
Or should i embrace this seperation with appreciation and thankfulness?
Thankful for fate filled a small part of my life up with this love of mine.
Thank fate for letting me fall in love with this love
Thank fate for giving me such a great person who loves me so much and whom i treasure so much.
But please, fate, please don't take him away from me.
Please let my heart be with his...
nothing else matters on3/15/2004 10:29:00 下午
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