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星期四, 三月 04, 2004

Yesterday received a letter from swinburne, they accepted me into their bachelor course of design. Sch starts on 20th july......but they wanna see my a level results too. Really v troubled nowaways...
worry about freelance.
Worry abt if i shld really go swinburne.
Worry abt results....

Shld I go? my mind wants me to go but my heart says otherwise. Perhaps eugene was right....i had made up my mind unconsciously... i jux had to lead myself to reveal that hidden decision of mine. But wat if unconsciously i dun have a decision at all?
I really am afraid to go, to leave everything i had here.... it seems so impossible, packing up to a foreign place and to pursue my dreams. It didnt appear so impossible 2 years ago. But it seems like a distant dream now to me. I dun really feel v happy when i receive the letter. I cant tell siwei now....coz he'll be sad and after his outfield i wan me and him to spend the weekend happily together. He asks me to go sentosa next weekend after his field trip. I cannot wait! We said that we'll goin to have a picnic there in the mornin, den goin to see the musical fountain ( I have not seen it before!) He is goin to bring me sit cable car too! :)
Heee....the thought of this makes my worries seem less .....at least for this moment.

Wat should i pursue for--dream or love?

nothing else matters on3/04/2004 01:19:00 上午

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