星期一, 三月 29, 2004
Heya....been a week since i (typed)Wellllll......nothing interesting in my life. I realise i got alot of work to piah this week cox i got my freelance...the stupid cilent keeps delayin her stuff and STILL wants me to finish quickly....HOW CAN???? I am going to heck care liaoz....
TML meeting Mr Lee's lobang...dunno who but they wan me to do some illustrations for a storyboard. One plate $11....heee...i tink can still negotiate if the workload is big...they wan me to do abt 40 plates so this month can earn abit more extra money. *grinz*
Jialin and I went shoppin last sat!!! Hee...she called like 15 min before siwei so i went with her instead cox i was so bored at home anyway. EBASE GOT 40% DISCOUNT STOREWIDE....so i bought 2 tops and another top from far east... :)
Wingchi came back from HKliaoz....quite happy she's back. But not sure if i wanna cont to listen to her tok...sometimes kinda wonder if she's speaking e truth. Sheez. anyway, dun wanna type anymore. *nitezzz*
nothing else matters on3/29/2004 11:48:00 下午
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星期二, 三月 23, 2004
We went sentosa yesterday! Haha the weather was sooo hot! We wanted to go since like one month ago....so we finally did yesterday. I prepared pancakes and mango salad (turns out more to be a fruit salad....bleehz) And we went to the beaches! Hee....actually the picnic isnt really fun but the cycling is fun.
We rented a double seater bike and cycled around the beaches. V fun! Siwei complains his body grew "fairer" so he took his shirt off to cycle, so i get to admire his (full of mosquito bitten) back throughout the ride, hee realise he got grow abit more muscular....*grinz*
Den we took turns to be the front person. I cannot balance at first cox he was so neavy at the back kept wanting to fall.....but it's really fun den we laff and tokked rubbish....haha den he kept tickling me so a few times nearly fell...Feels like in e movies....*lol* I must be tinking too much!
Hey we watched the musical fountains for the 1st time! Hee it's quite nice lahz....quite romantic! But sadly i got a headache and he's sleepy towards the end....so he kinda fell aslp on my shoulder.
We didnt take the cable car too! Cox both of us were so tired to enjoy the night scene....sigh. But it was a great day anyway, i kinda love the walk back to harbourfront, we juz held hands and walked and walked....v long but hope it doesnt end! :)
nothing else matters on3/23/2004 12:01:00 上午
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星期一, 三月 15, 2004
When you knoe u're goin somewhere far away for a long time and you knoe that you're going to leave a person you love in about 3 months...you will start to appreciate all the time you have with him.
We ended up at the sky garden for no apparent reason yesterday. It was a bright afternoon but the sun was not scorching. The sky garden kept memories of us. We were there for our first og gathering...and that night was an embarassing night that made me really sad then. But it was a thrilling moment no less.
I like the sky garden, especially the waterfall situated in the middle of the greens. We sat down, overlookin the towerin buildings.
And we kissed. It was the most extraordinary kiss ever, I called it a lingering kiss. And it requires 2 very synchronised lips (and tongues) in order to produce it. It has the softness of a light kiss, the passion like that of a french kiss, but minus the roughness. It tastes sweet.
nothing else matters on3/15/2004 11:05:00 下午
Mornin! tink u still slping...mi tink alot last nite now startin to realise act three yrs without u is a v long long time...startin to feel afraid but i noe i will have e strength to pass thru...now startin to understand y u so reluctant to go...i now feel v lonely and miss u alot suddenly. u'll gone in abt two months and my whole life will change. i noe i wont find another gf dats for sure but i feel v lost now juz by tinking of e days ahead wo u...i'll look for tingy to do onez lik learnin guitar and readin comics...i noe u are worry whether my feelin for u'll fade...i cant say wad'll happen in e future but rite now in e present u are my gf and my love is v v strong...i oso worry abt u dere. Will u fall in love with another guy? I noe u'll say no but i'm afraid if sum one takes care of u realli well dere i noe u'll fall in love... Haf u eva tot wad'll happen when u comeback? Both our livin culture will be v diff. I mabbe still e idiot i'm but wad if i change... act i'm not dat worry abt ur life dere cuz inoe u like e place. i can always send u stuff ev month and i noe u'll be stronger dere andur fren'll help u to settle down... i hope u'll noe how to take care of yr. dere is a foreign country its not as safe as here u haf to take care yr cuz u start to lose yr once u start to haf fun... take v good care of yr dere. Be v wary of strangers... sixiu i haf say so much i noe i'm v selfish by sayin tingy abt us onli. I realli start to feel v lonely le... v stupid rite. E next few months will be our last time toget for a v long time...eight months when u say is fast but act is a v long time. Sixiu sorry for bombin ur fone with so much msg. I dunno how to speak well by tis i can express better...love ya and slp tite my dear
(07:04-07:33am, 14 march 2004)
3 years down the road, will you remember wat you have told me yesterday?
Are we fated to go through this parting?
Is this part of our destiny?
Perhaps we are only meant to play supporting roles in each other lives?
To add a pinch of bliss that is ever so transcient?
So hurting?
So unbearable?
Or should i embrace this seperation with appreciation and thankfulness?
Thankful for fate filled a small part of my life up with this love of mine.
Thank fate for letting me fall in love with this love
Thank fate for giving me such a great person who loves me so much and whom i treasure so much.
But please, fate, please don't take him away from me.
Please let my heart be with his...
nothing else matters on3/15/2004 10:29:00 下午
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星期四, 三月 04, 2004
Yesterday received a letter from swinburne, they accepted me into their bachelor course of design. Sch starts on 20th july......but they wanna see my a level results too. Really v troubled nowaways...
worry about freelance.
Worry abt if i shld really go swinburne.
Worry abt results....
Shld I go? my mind wants me to go but my heart says otherwise. Perhaps eugene was right....i had made up my mind unconsciously... i jux had to lead myself to reveal that hidden decision of mine. But wat if unconsciously i dun have a decision at all?
I really am afraid to go, to leave everything i had here.... it seems so impossible, packing up to a foreign place and to pursue my dreams. It didnt appear so impossible 2 years ago. But it seems like a distant dream now to me. I dun really feel v happy when i receive the letter. I cant tell siwei now....coz he'll be sad and after his outfield i wan me and him to spend the weekend happily together. He asks me to go sentosa next weekend after his field trip. I cannot wait! We said that we'll goin to have a picnic there in the mornin, den goin to see the musical fountain ( I have not seen it before!) He is goin to bring me sit cable car too! :)
Heee....the thought of this makes my worries seem less .....at least for this moment.
Wat should i pursue for--dream or love?
nothing else matters on3/04/2004 01:19:00 上午
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