星期日, 二月 22, 2004
Woke up at 12 plus in the afternoon today....so sleepy couldnt get up coz last nite was talkin to eugene til 2am....talkin abt woes. Haha....he kinda sort things out for me and gave me some advice to me abt siwei....yup perhaps he was rite i tink too complicate-ly. Mabbe i shld be more direct to the point to avoid unnecessary unhappiness and misunderstandings.
I was so bored so asked lizhen to go out with me...she was so nice and agreed to meet me in the evenin though she went cycling with edmund and gen and his fren at ubin. we went bugis! And we shopped and shopped.....but i was soooo lousy! I got irritatably tired....and i told lz abt me and siwei--ab yesterdy...hey it was really not sad anymore. Tink i kept repeating the incident-to eugene to lz until i dun feel sad anymore....in fact i dun feel that it was a big thing anymore, i juz feel abit stupid abt the whole thing and why i'm so affected coz he got no time to get me a pressie. It's not that he doesnt love me....so i guess i'm really over reacting. Hmph.
Anyway he called me juz now...and feels abit weird. I am really happy to receive his calls....but sometimes i realise it's always the same qns i'm askin- like how are u? got eat? got pass yr ...test? can do push-ups? He everytime will start the conversation with "ah3" Den i'll have to tink of qns to ask to keep the conversation goin....sometimes it's so ironic...like he only haf 15 min or less to spare....the talk time are supposedly to be precious and we shouldnt waste a second of it.
Yet, perhaps we are so rushed to be forced to say something that it turns out that we have nothin much to say to each other? Somemore the reception is so bad we are interrupted like everytime we talked. often i have to "huh" a few times b4 i get wat he says.....perhaps talkin in this kinda bad atmosphere is equivilent to not talking at all? Sigh.....mabbe i'm the only one who gets this feeling. But on the contrary, i really perk up when i hear his voice. I get lonely if he doesnt call....but when he calls, i realise i have not much to say.....does this means that loving and missing someone doesnt require verbal communication? Perhaps this problem only exist when he's in camp?
Anyway, i bought a matching handphone accessory for him and me....it's very nice! Saw it at bugis....it's a metal wire bent into the shape of our names. so i bought 2....it's instant made on the spot...the person says our names are so coincidental and that we muz be a perfect match. Haha...perhaps he's tryin to sell off his handicraft, but it really made my day :)
nothing else matters on2/22/2004 11:32:00 下午
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