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星期六, 二月 14, 2004

Siwei juz left my house....sheez i can't believe i cried... :( Coz i feel so bad for being abit angry with him for not initiating to buy any presents for me! I was really abit angry and disappointed coz i saw couples holding flowers and soft toys walking around the whole of jurong point and i didnt get anything at all....but i wasnt angry at first...i knew he juz came out of camp and had no time to buy anything. But i dunno y juz felt abit not happy :(
I cried coz on the bus i realised how tired he is--he fell asleep on the bus so quickly and his slping position is so erratic it suddenly struck me how tired he is.......I suddenly feel so ashamed and guilty for being unhappy about the fact that he didnt bought me anything for valentines...So i cried in his arms when we were in my room juz now. He juz hugged me tight and i felt so blissed.
Perhaps i would look at this some months after this and will feel like a complete idiot...but i love him more den ever now...realising the fact that he'll be in camp permanently living this kinda lifestyle and i will only be able to be with him once a week or less.. He said that he had grew to love me more after he went in camp... :) It was so sweet! The only thing i wanted to do was to hug and lie down beside him when i see him today. That moment when we were just side by side together brought a different feeling into my heart--it was a moment of shere sweetness, of eternal warmth and peace and I feel like my life was made solely to experience this moment with him.
It was a moment of perfection.

nothing else matters on2/14/2004 11:26:00 下午

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